aku tak pantas untuk memulai, karena semua awal adalah milikmu
pun tak ada yang harus ku akhiri
karena awal bagiku tlah lenyap
waktu kan buktikan semua benar adanya....

-pagi2 udah nglantur.com-

saking masih #galau-nya bulan ini jarang nangkring depan si-lepy.hehe..
alamat posting diblog jd makin jarang2 az, padahal kan harusnya makin tambah sedih makin banyak uneg2 di hati.halah!

hmm....
pokoknya harapanku semoga bulan depan makin produktif, makin sering lembur, dapet double job, alias bisa ngumpulin banyak duit!!!wkwkwk*ngaco.com*
alias g mikir yang GA PENTING lagi!!! #ini baru benar.com
hahaha.....

-curhat-

#galau

"aku terbangun di pagi buta
dengan luka yg masih tersisa *jiaaah....lebay!*
tapi itulah yang kurasa"

hhmmm... jiwa dan otakku ini seolah tarik menarik menurutkan egonya
jiwa ingin bertegur sapa tapi pikiran tak bergeming sedetik pun!!
jiwaku tulus untuk memberi tapi kata2 ketus yang selalu keluar
otakku ingin melupakan semua tapi hati ini masih selalu ingat
aku tampak selalu kuat
tapi hatiku rapuh
seperti hanyut pada arusku sendiri, pikirku...
tapi hati ingin memberontak!!
apa daya..??? *bimbang*
lalu apa mauku...???
dan hati inipun hanya diam membisu...

"This Time"

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
A flickering of all of my mistakes
And as the light starts creeping in
I slowly feel
The day I'm missing
But I wouldn't even know where to begin

Do I push to hard?
Or fall to fast?
The moment never seems to last
Will I stop long enough to know

Everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away,
This time

Your words circle in my head
Weigh so heavy on my chest
And I'm crushed by your expectation
I only want to do some good
Too dumb to know if I could
And I just wanna feel the days I'm in

Do I go to far,
Not far enough?
Why can't I keep my big mouth shut?
And do we lead the life that we should?

Everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away,
This time

Did I say to much again?
I'm just a girl in a panic
If I tell you my truth
Am I getting through?
It just seems I should confess
Who am I to pretend
This is more than I can carry

Everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I hold my head up high
I know I'll be alright
This time
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away
This time
This time,
This time
This time,
This time

It's 4 am and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
It's times like these I see your face

-cry-